There is nothing more beautiful than a friendship between teenage girls.
Not feeling embarrassed to talk about your feelings, being comfortable crying in front of them, and comfortable telling them everything about the past and present. Sharing makeup and clothes, sleeping in the same bed, laughing uncontrollably together, dealing with the same struggles, and getting ready together. Supporting each other, growing up together.
So you can imagine the heartbreak I felt when each friend faded one by one.
I crave them. Their voice, their smell, their presence. I lost my last straw of innocence to friendships because I loved them and what they offered me emotionally. And heartbreak has nothing on losing a best friend.
Countless conversations with and about you still haunt me. Anyone who truly knows me, knows your name. And we may now hate each other but I will forever be grateful for the person I am because of you.
I wish nothing but the best for you in life. I want you to accomplish your dreams and meet the best people. Go to all the places you talked about visiting, and succeed in your career. I want no part in it. You will always faintly cross my mind, even 20 years from now.
You had too much of an impact on my life. And maybe you are bad for me, but I had some of my happiest times with you. And for that, I will love you forever. And in another life, we are friends forever.
Moving forward, I started to do the things we planned together with other people. People who still made an effort to be my friends, regardless of how quiet or awkward I was at first. Throughout high school, you will lose many friends.
Many relationships grow apart, and many people change. One day, you will view the people you used to talk to every day through a screen. They’ll look like themselves but be different, because life goes on.
I find myself faced with people who have the same mentality that I had four years ago, and I can’t help but feel I am talking to a younger version of myself. Useless problems, naive thoughts, and not knowing what is to come. Throughout high school, I had the time to grow and become the person I am.
In college, I will meet people I belong with. And while I love the people in my life now, I do not feel they are perfect for me. One day I will meet my group: people that will bring out only the purest of joy in me. Sunshine will gleam from the cracks in my soul.
Advice to readers: Do not let terrible things in your life turn you evil. If it will make you act badly, is it worth it? I used to be someone I never wanted to be. Doing the things I promised my younger self I wouldn’t even think about. I will never be that version of myself again. All I’ve ever wanted was to be a kind, loving person in the world and spread positivity.
I wish nothing but the best for my peers. I want them to succeed, to find their passion in life and pursue it. I want to look 10–20 years in the future and see all of us in a good place. I’m excited about what the future has in store for me. I am ready for the new experiences that come with being an adult. It’s better if you try to find peace of mind and not understand everything.
I have visions and plans for the future. I have a deep soul and a pure heart, and I now know not everyone will understand and respect that. You can’t expect people to be like you. You don’t always need to be understood. You need to learn to enjoy life alone so that when the right people come along, you can enjoy it together. There is so much we don’t know about ourselves, and that makes life beautiful.
Next year, you can hear your new favorite song, or meet your best friend who will be at your wedding someday. Never mind next year, tomorrow you might see the most beautiful sunset, stop for your favorite ice cream, or see a shade of color you’ve never seen before. Life always has something in store for us.
You’re always going to be young in someone’s eyes and old in someone else’s. Talented to one person and terrible to the next. The world is never going to agree on a definition of who you are.You might as well ignore them and be the person you want to be.
Hello, I´m Aiyana. I´m a senior working my first year along side the 42fifty staff here at Oswego High School.
